FRAGMENT FROM R.D.T IN ENGLISH (not my native)
– Have you ever had a situation where you knew you had to change something about yourself, but the feature, even though it wasn't painful, still gave you a sense of comfort? Change itself is a terrible concept, associated with hard work and other unnamed difficulties. The way I am is that I like to run away from problems, which is why I avoid any changes - because for me they are associated with their stereotype - they are difficult, painful, tedious and unreliable. But there always comes a moment when we know that this trait should be repressed and removed. We simply feel the need to get rid of it - for our own good or for the good of another person that is important to us. I have been looking at the world for a very long time, but I have never looked at this from this point of view I looked at it on that one day. I wasn't created to exist in this world - that's what I told myself then. I think our world was created for something completely different, I think the world was created to be much quieter, more peaceful. I was not adapted to accept so many stimuli at once, noises (traffic, machines), areas occupied by buildings (blocks of flats, housing estates, notice that there is almost no place on earth that would not be influenced by humans) are not something to which I was adapted. People dug a hole for themselves and entered it. In fact you are all like me, and none of you were originally intended to occupy such a large part of the world. – After these words, my friend looked at me like I was an idiot, but he still listened. – I bet that if you sent me back to my world, I would have a chance to change beyond recognition, but now with all this chaos, it's hard for me to even talk to someone on the street. I always feel like the screeching tires are louder than my words.