Self destruction

 I'm not eating much, as an punishment. I don't want to eat because I like the feeling that my body is already giving up on me, I like the feeling of death near. I like feeling half alive. 

Irritation - carefree guy

 You don't even read anything that is on here. You spend your life playing along and just being an carefree, funny guy who doesn't really care about my passion or things like that. I love you so much but I don't think we belong together. I am an artistic soul, I have always dreamed of having someone to share my passion with, You don't have anything that you are passionate about. 

I find it very annoying. I wish someone would be interested in what I am doing and I'm sure I will find someone like that.