Man, i forgot how much I love to write here. I feel so fucking wasted today and don't get me wrong, life had been good lately ( i mean not that bad ) ... but I feel so alone, my friends started to get other priorities than hanging out with my depressed shit. It's kinda calm now, but I don't like it. I also got more sick, never shared it with anyone really but since 6grade primary school I am bodyshaming myself, eventually developed ana. I like the way my body feels when I'm so fucking weak I can't walk anymore.
Why won't anyone hear my call for help? I won't help myself, I can't. Mom please, react before it's too late.